Hello all,

Life has been so busy the past month, and I just have not taken the time to sit down and make a post. I’m sorry for that. I know this being a real life account of someone who is creating a lifestyle, thats not overly helpful.

I turned 35 last week, and I wanted to make a post about how this year feels and what I am looking at as I move into the next half of this decade. I dint take the time, but, 5 days later, I am doing my best to do that now.

Last year and into this year, I was struggling with turning 35. I felt like all the good years were done and I was looking at aging and getting wrinkly and no longer looking at an attractive person in the mirror. I know that’s shallow, but that was part of it. I was also looking at what my health was like and how I felt and I didn’t think that outlook looked great either. I was stressed and anxious, feeling old and worn down. I hit that moment in January when I decided I needed to make a change, and it would be permanent. Turns out I have really gotten passionate about this Nutritarian thing and I am even trying to make a book club about it. I think I was having a mid life crisis at 34. I did buy a fast car last year too, so maybe I am on the money for that. I drive a John Cooper Works Mini Clubman. She’s pretty quick when I want her to be.

I wanted to compare my face from last March to this March. You can really tell around my lower cheeks. In the last year photo I didnt even have a full smile, and this year, with a fill smile, my face isnt even as full as it was in the before. I feel better and more in control of my eating, though I am still struggling with other areas of my life.

I did eat twice, things that were not Nutritarian. Once was some queso cheese that I always got on my birthday, though I was so full and at one point I had to spit out a bite into my napkin because my body was shouting NO at me, and I felt like I was queasy. The other time, two days later was some nachos with beans on them. I avoided all flour products and sugar etc as those are extremely triggering for me, and even then, I will say, I did not love how I felt the next days and I struggled with saying not and stopping with eating. I was feeling the cravings and was actively being aware of what I was doing on Sunday. Food addiction is real folks!

After the weekend, I am avoiding the scale until next week, as I don’t want to discourage myself. Though my primary goal is health and gaining back myself, the scale is a monster and plays mind games, so I am just not looking, though I didn’t eat a lot of extra calories, there was salt in all the food I ate, and that makes me hold on to more fluids. That being said, I reached 154.4, which has been an amazing feeling. I am making the right choices and it is showing and I feel great about it.

One other exciting thing is that I am getting more active. March 3rd was the first day in the gym. I go on base since we have access, and I decided I didn’t love the gym, but being on the treadmill wasn’t too bad and I used to run a lot before I had kids. So, this week I have been out walking and adding in some running at the last half to work up my endurance. It makes me feel good being out there and getting active. Sometimes I feel anxious getting out the door, but usually within about 10 minutes I feel great and by the time I am done I feel wonderful and hopeful.

Side note:

I am currently reading through Eat to Live with a few gals, and I would love you to join. We are meeting on Sundays at 1PM pacific time. I have a google link for the meeting and would love to have you. This week we are working through the intro and Chapter 1, or as far as we can make it, and Sunday we will touch base to see what questions come up and what we might have found intriguing etc. Reach out and send me a note if you want to join!

Moving forward, I will do my best to post at least once a week and let you all know of progress. I have plans, I just need to execute them better. I guess that’s life, right?